There's this guy...

Of course there's always a guy. There are always guys.

But this one's so... soo, whats the word... different. I mean, today was one of those instances when it really hit me hard and made me go "wow".

Wow. Thats the only word I can come up with. And it wouldn't have so bad if he hadn't looked twice at me. TWICE! And not twice like two glances in two seconds, but once when he entered and one when he just passed by me. I almost waved (and thought of smiling) but ended up just digging into my backpack to stuff an empty Starbucks bottle and pretending I hadn't noticed (or rather telling myself I was over-imagining). An empty bottle even. Imagine that.

So lets back up on this for a bit. I first saw him at a Study Abroad seminar during my orientation for university, which was way back in August of last year. He was sitting to my right somewhere but I didn't really give a damn (or any guy as a matter of fact) because of a recent heartbreak, if thats what you would call it. I did. A little. But didn't bother. What were the chances of me ending up with another guy who was a jerk like any other guy?

And even now, I admit I don't know him. He might be the jerk I fear. A drinker, smoker, pimp, or on whatever drug the world has to offer to college kids. And even worse, have a girlfriend. But I guess I let myself savor the moment a bit too much heh... so much that I'm telling you about it. Everytime I see him around campus (2 times so far? Or maybe 3? A'ight I'm not that pathetic to keep a count lol), I think...

Coincidence.

There's a helluva lot of coincidences in my life. Happens with everyone I guess, but maybe a bit more with me. Or I just end up noticing a whole lot (which isn't such a good thing). I can figure out what a person's about to say. I've been told I read people's minds and thoughts, the hidden meanings behind what they say (or what they don't say). I've also been told that I can predict events and change it (if I really really want it to turn out some way). Yeah right. Its bs if you ask me. But sometimes you just stop in your tracks and give something a second thought. "Maybe..."

I've considered a lot of things based on my instincts, and they never turned out the way I wanted them to. So what makes this one any different? I DON'T KNOW! I walk and his stare flashes across my mind. I close my eyes and I can't help to think how he would look if he smiled back at me. If of course... I smiled first. Which I know I won't be able to do. I'd smile, flirt and pass a few passing lines at any other guy, but that just means I'm not even remotely interested in him (and God help him if he doesn't figure that out by the end of the day). Weird how I clam up when I'm actually interested, huh.

Ah, the world's a fantasy for us romantics. Our life's on a cloud. Everything looks so perfect from up there. I don't even know his name. His major. I don't even know any other mood of his other than that one stare! Could it get worse? Yes... I know I won't do anything about it. Well, I dunno. Maybe just 'cuz I can't at this point in time and... year. Maybe not for another 5 years or so

O_o

And what are the chances of me seeing him again. Nada. Over a period of 5 months I've seen him 2 or 3 times. I hardly go to that side of the campus until and unless I feel like spending money on the food there, or go see William Pope.L's Under All, Above Most Underwear collection (in the picture).




Like I said, it must be a passing thing. I sure hope so :\